As always just for fun but since last.fm stopped streaming music had to move to Spotify... Last.fm had introduced me too so many new or lesser known artists that I do miss it!
1. Lights by Ellie Goulding
2. Heartbeat Song by Kellys Clarkson ft. Ikon
3. Diabolic Crush by Third Realm
4. Face The Truth by Unsung
5. My Mind Playing Tricks on Me by SickTanicK
6. God Be With You Until We Meet Again by David Tolk
7. Forgiving by Namnambulu, [:SITD:]
8. I Will Fail You by Demon Hunter
9. Obsolete by Backandtotheleft
10. Philadelphia by Parachute
11. Haunted by GatoPaint
12. Light Up the Darkness by Project Lionheart
13. Streetlights by Building Rome
14. Confined by Mesh
15. Death By Moonlight by Rhea's Obsession
16. Almost Here by Delta Goodrem, Brian McFadden
17. I Don't Deserve You by Plumb, Paul Van Dyk
18. Burn The City by Tragedy Machine
19. Is Nothing Sacred by Meat Loaf
20. I'll Be There by Mike Howard
21. New Elysium by Celldweller
22. First Time by Billie Myers
23. Little Man Big Man by Toad the Wet Sprocket
24. One More Try by Timmy T
25. Chance By Silent Season
26. Not Gonna Die by Skillet
27. My Own Nightmare by Downplay
28. A Neverending Dream by Cascada
29. Somewhere I Belong by Angel's Fall
30. Don't Say A Word (Acoustic Version) by Ely sion
31. Take Control by 3 Pill Morning
I do not post too often public or just friends. Way too many filters where I put things but anyways deciding to do a brief public so those who want can comment and I can add to additional filters if needed/wanted. So for a few this is a repeat so feel free to skip it.
I have been working with a friend on getting a spiritual circle together again. I asked my old church if I could use a name one of its groups held and I got permission. So we will see where that goes. To keep up with this or events, let me know.
We did go to Germany this last summer and I had a chance to meet quite a few of Cloudy's dad side of the family. It was quite an adventure. If you want to know more of the drama and trauma of my family life, let me know. There are always good points but on Condor's side a nephew was arrested for Child abuse (towards his brother's son) and we need to travel up to Grants to get a chance to visit the 'nice' side of the family.
Cloudy is teaching middle school but looking at moving towards a high school. Looking at getting him Social Studies certified. Mostly due to his interest in History but he really wants to teach Earth Science and Mathematics. He is teaching Life Science and Math for 7th grade right now.
I still need to get down to my land to build my cabin but haven't had the time and needed additional repairs on the Van. Country life is just having to wait.
Swizzle had her TPLO but that resulted in 2 additional surgeries. So far 18 weeks with a cast/splint. They Change the bandages every 2 weeks. Dusty is having a really hard time moving now days. She can take about 15 steps before needing to rest. Due to the damage and way her hips healed why she was homeless, there is not much the vet can offer. Looking at was to help her get around now with her Physical therapist. Zia is turning 15. Seems hard that we have had her nearly ten years. She is acting like she is hard of hearing now, and her joints feel the weather and stiffness if she isn't too active.
I been dealing with a bit of Genealogy. Recently met a distant cousin's wife online so eager to share info with her when we have time. Planning on trying to get a trip to Arkansas to see family. Just had an early Christmas dinner with my great Uncle at his nursing home.
Been trying to get back to school but things keep coming up so hopefully next summer it will be possible again. Just need to brush up again on my math. I forget so much of it so easily.
Been working a bit with Peer support groups and working with a couple of people on trying to develop a online support group for people who need it.
So I will end it there for now. Hope everyone will have a great holiday!
It's amazing how I have been considered most titles... from pagan to christian right, from liberal without logic to republican conservative, to being trailer trash, to a mini socialite.
It's all to me a form of discrimination to label anyone or anything we don't fully understand. So for me, everyone should be given an individual value if we are to ever to expect to break the cycles of apathy towards those who don't fit our own models. I am not a socialist by practice but I do have an open door policy. I don't have much money but if someone has the shakes and need a drink, I don't feel it's my place to judge their needs and wants so likely I will give my change. I have friends in most all religions, I have friends of many ethic backgrounds and people from all economical classes. I am blessed that these people could look beyond labels, blinders or boxing me in before they got to know me. To me they really do prove that people. can be individuals and valued above colored blind or religious freedoms...I can be proud to be who I am without feeling that people would see it as hostile act towards them.
I made mistakes. I learned from them. I have pride I sometimes have to swallow. I have scars that I sometimes feel they need to hide. I am not perfect in most ways but I am perfect at being me and knowing I too sometimes judge when I shouldn't, give allowances that I shouldn't and critize when I have been just a guilt of the same error. I need to improve, that is where I trust my friends and families to step. Non-involvement might make it easier but I do believe in community and empathy even to those who might become a rival. There isn't a history that makes someone less valued, there isn't a family that reflects each of the individuals..
Not the best but I love to hear what people think and feel. I may not agree for me or my lifestyle but I hope to practice the belief that all views are important and has some seed of truth and divine spirit but it does get filtered through our experiences and polluted as we feel the need to impose it on others. Still working on it and wanting to improve to see the value of each person and not the labels we declared on others or even ourselves.
May 1st: Up by the Saturdays
May 2nd: Eurotrash by Zeromancer
May 3rd: Sillyworld by Stone Sour
May 4th: Criticize by Adelitas Way
May 5th: Troubled Dreams by Mankind is Obsolete
May 6th: The Apex Doctrine by System Divide
May 7th: Energy by Skillet
May 8th: Ave Maria by Charles Gounod
May 9th: Unexpected by Neuroticfish
May 10th: Motivation by Kelly Rowland
May 11th: Best In Me by Sent By Ravens
May 12th: Watch me by Bella Throne
May 13th: Watching over Me by Thousand Foot Krutch
May 14th: King by King Gordy
May 15th: All Pro by Esham
May 16th: Rest in Pieces by Mesh
May 17th: Cold Comfort (Run Level Zero) by Pzychobitch
May 18th: Halielujah by Alexandra Burke
May 19th: Ok by Psy'aviah
May 20th: Smoot flavor by Novastar
May 21st: Transfer:complete by Icon of Coil
May 22nd: It's not Me It's You by Skillet
May 23rd: Nothing Nowhere by Jakalope
May 24th: Bleed Me Dry by The Murder of My Sweet
May 25th: Drive by Assemblage 23
May 26th: Beautiful by Anders Manga
May 27th: No Transmission by Endanger
May 28th: Streetcorner Symphony by Rob Thomas
May 29th: The Sparrows and The Nightingales by Wolfsheim
May 30th: Black Dahlia by Hollywood Undead
May 31st: Too Late by Dead By Sunrise
I wanted to thank everyone for the comments and letters of support and understanding. I haven't gotten back to replie for everyone yet but I wanted to leave a note so you all know it was acknowledged and I will respond within the next couple of days.
Thank you all again!
22nd: Elements by Necessary Response
23rd: Stand Up (extended mix) by Stromkern
24th: Hooked (Redical Mix) by Seabound
25th: Epiphany by Solitary Experiments
26th: Master by Interlace
27th: Like Every Insect by System Syn
28th: Supernova by Syrian
29th: Docment (original mix) by Assemblage 23
30th: If We Stay Here by Mesh
1st: Envoi by absynthe Minded
2nd: Akua Tuta by Kashtin
3rd: Catastrophe by Anders Manga
4th: The Rain within Her Hands by Belle Morte
5th: Send me an Angel by Zeromancer (next post about it)
6th: Entropy by Informatik
7th: Rock and Rock Lullaby
Sometimes it's difficult to believe people drawn to drama that the event is as damaging to them as they really speak of it...but it changes when the drama becomes quiet and indifferent. When the 'I can't go on' becomes a 'whats the point trying'... when the caps in writing becomes more formal and impersonal or the tears and silent and for a change they hide them.
It indeed makes the event MORE now to us outside of the mind. When we see someone who never want to shrug the smallest thing off starts trying to numb out and not ever care about issues that had matter... The alarms go off and the height of awareness flares. However, with drama seekers, these few events doesn't always result in something serious but a sudden understand that for a change it really is hurting unlike the past, the true questions of how to move forward or even how to communicate what happened or what one really feels strangles in their throat...and as an outsider initial all we can do is offer silent support and encourage them to talk, to cry and t accept the depths the events.
March 1st: Smoke by Assemblage 23
March 2nd: Lonely by Shannon Noll
March 3rd: Do I Need A Reason by D'sound
March 4th: Ondine's Curse by Ashentide
March 5th: Anarchy b Skazi
March 6th: Here Comes The Rain by Eurythmics
March 7th: In This Together by Apopgyma Bezerk
March 8th: The Thin Ghost by The Hare and the Moon.
March 9th: I Don't Want To Wait by Paula Cole
March 10th: The Loss. The Fall. The End. By Before and After Science
March 11th: Ugly by Sugababes
March 12th: Denied by Sonic Syndicate
March 13th: Together We Can Shine by Andien
March 14th: Telling Lies by Grafton Primary
March 15th: The Best It's Gonna Get by Celldweller
March 16th: Here Me Now by Endless Shame
March 17th: Silence by Selena Cross
March 18th: Your Loving Arms (club mix) by Karen Overton
March 19th: Made In Heaven by Deine Lakaien
March 20th: Sacred Smoke by Eric Casillas
March 21st: Everything Burns by Ben Moody (ft. Anastasia)
March 22nd: Stay by Shakespear's sister
March 23rd: Holle (meow mix) by Ivoux
March 24th: Paper Mansion by Dottie West
March 25th: Reach Down by Scarlet Haze
March 26th: Forever (psymix by negative format) by Bruderschaft
March 27th: Garden of Dreams by Gary Stadler
March 28th: Mo Ba Bin by Flip Kowlier
March 29th: Goodbye by Bow Ever Down
March 30th: Flight by Cesium 137
March 31st: Nobot by Darkology
My 36th Year: Voices Carry by Til Tuesday
Body; Party Til We Die by Corporate Soldiers
Mind; Heaven Only Knows by Richard Marx
Spirit; Black Sky by Meden Agan
Happy Holidays! Merry Christmas! Blessed Solstice, and all the other reasons to celebrate!
A few of my cards were late getting off due to me being ill most of the month. Hopefully everyone will get them by the weekend! Have a blessed new year!